Posts tagged ‘life stuff’

Gay Ally Graphics
| March 26, 2009 | 4:48 pm

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So welcome new home of Thursday Thirteen. Got a list? 13 ideas? 13 photos or links or crazy thoughts? Join us for a bit of fun and as we get to know each other a little! Don’t forget to leave your link at the site and leave a comment here. Thorne loves TT-ers!

13 Gay Ally Graphics Yes, that’s you.  If you know and love someone who is gay, if you believe that we gays are people just like you, deserving of the same rights, you are an “Ally”.  Grab a graphic.

1) straight not narrow

2) gay marriage

3) pflag

4) human rights

5) gay marriage

6) gay ally

7) gay ally glbt

8) gay ally glbt

9) someone-you-know-is-gay

10) gay ally glbt

11) gay ally glbt

12) gay ally glbt

13) gay ally glbt

That’s my TT.

Well… okay.  One more because I simply can’t resist:

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Thanks for stopping by!   I’m off to visit now!

Non-Schedules in Thorne’s World
| March 23, 2009 | 2:52 pm

organizing schedules lists clutterIt’s Monday, dreaded Monday. Well, Monday may be hell on you folks that have to get up and go to a day job, but it’s actually a bit of a relief for me. See, on Mondays, when the GirlyBoi goes back to work, I get back to my regular non – schedule.
I like to think that I don’t “do” schedules. I prefer to think of myself as a spontaneous sort of free spirit. Self employed (might as well be unemployed right now), free to hop from project to project or to stay up late and sleep in at will or whim. I am so full of shit! Hahaha!
I actually do have a number of things that need to be done daily in a somewhat timely fashion, as well as weekly things, not to mention a slew of things that I want to do daily, and if I tell the truth, I do them on a (*shudder) “schedule”.
Still, since this is the world according to Thorne, (and since a certain amount of self delusion is welcome in Thornesworld), I shall call it my Non – Schedule, and happily retain some small bit of my self image as a spontaneous free spirit!

I don’t know if Spring brings out folks’ inner organizer or if I’ve been reading too many mommyblogs, but is it my imagination or are there about ten million people out there all writing about their freaking organizers?  Their lists and to-dos?  See that pic up there?  The nearly illegible (even for me) scrawl on the envelope?  That’s my to-do list- my non-schedule; my pocket organizer.

The list reads:

  • Make Birdy Bread
  • Call Phone Co.
  • Clean & herb fireplace
  • Blend tobacco
  • Take dinner out
  • laundry?
  • compost

Now, there’s a good chance that I’ll lose or throw away that list before I get it done. And it doesn’t include any of the regular daily stuff (except for the taking something out of the freezer bit- I’m always forgetting that one!), nor does it include any of the projects or want-to-do’s.

Back when I used to try to keep lists; real lists, I used to list all the daily shit; dishes, bed, blogging, feeding birds, sweeping, dinner- just so I’d feel accomplished when I got to check all that crap off even if I didn’t get any of the extras or want-to-dos done.  Haha!

These days there are some legths to which I will no longer go for a bit of self delusion. That’s growth, right?  Isn’t it? Hee hee!

The thing is, on my weekends my non-schedule gets blown to hell!  Let me tell you folks that being a femme lesbian with a Girlyboi (yes- read this as “butch”- read this as “male-without-a-dick”) for a partner, is not as different as some of you hetero wives may think.

Can I just say that my GirlyBoi works her narrow butt of all week at a construction/building job and when she comes home, like many (I said many- not all) men, she feels nothing so much as entitled to simply lie around?

Now, I could go off on an entire rant about people who are content to lie around and be lazy, but that’s not where I’m going with this one.  I realize that not everyone is a go-gettin’, do-stuff, active freak like me and that’s cool.  The best thing about that GirlyBoi o’ mine is that she does all that “boy” stuff (yes, I’m a sexist), like taking the trash out and going to the dump and emptying cat-boxes, and she also pitches in with pairing her own socks (she is a sock freak!) dishes and putting her own clothes away; and on weekend mornings she does my morning bird care chores and brings me coffee in bed.  You can’t beat that with a stick!  I’ll put up with a lot for coffee in bed.

No, the worst thing about weekends is that her laziness is contagious!  When she’s layin’ around, I can’t seem to help layin’ around with her even when it’s driving me nuts!!!

This weekend was worse than usual, because Spring did a backflip and turned cold and windy and rainy.  Windy is a relative term here in the High Desert.  We get breezes almost every day, but 40 mile an hour cold winds with 65 mph gusts simply sux on so many levels!

Let me tell ya, you don’t want to be outside in that crap even if it’s not raining.  Even driving in it is a pain in the ass.

So although we had some outdoor work scheduled to do together, when the weather foiled that the GirlyBoi figured she got a couple of free days and it turned into a deep laze weekend.

How many movies can a person watch? How many times can a couple of old dykes have sex? (I’ll never tell)  How much blogcruising can you do on freaking dial-up!!!  Arggghhhh!!!!

I’m so glad it’s Monday.  It’s still a bit chilly, but she’s at work and I’m back to my usual non – schedule.  I’m scratching the laundry and compost from the list (for today), and late on taking out dinner (as usual), and it’s so cold in here I made a fire so no fireplace cleaning today, but there’s birdy bread to bake and basic household chores and at least one indoor project I’m up for, so it’s all good in Thornesworld today!  (Did you notice the little crochet bag next to my list?  I finally got something worked out for Shelly’s Good Medicine Project.  I’ll write that up and fill you all in later!)

Peace, out!

The High Priestess
| March 18, 2009 | 11:08 am

tarot divination meditation magickal lifestyleIt’s Tarot Tuesday, a new meme by chameleonsdream who blogs at Coffee Break and Everyday Tarot (Both, by the way, great blogs and well worth visiting!)

I am in love with this Image from the Tarot of the Dead.  It has such a great Dia De Los Muertos feeling and style.  I think I need this deck.

The High Priestess card always speaks to me of potential.  It is the number 2 card, the first card carrying the energy of duality which is reflected in the black and white drapery on either side of the central image.  She is what may be, what could be.  She is possibility and wishes and the planting of seeds in Spring.  Often she represents hidden or unformed knowledge or talent.  She can stand for activities or business ventures still in the brainstorming stage, ripe for action but not yet put into play.

I think she’s a perfect card for me today, in the Spring and while I work to learn new ways to process and share my knowledge and writing with a wider audience.  She speaks to me of the potential for growth.

On a deeper level she represents a re-awakening of spirit and perhaps some level of connection with the Gods and the Universe for me.

Truth be told, I never was one to “trust” the Gods on a large scale or as part of the big picture.  I always knew that there is no guiding intelligence presiding over this insane mess of a world with all its incredible beauty and devastating horrors.  That life happens to us all and there is often no rhyme or reason to it.  Not everything happens for a reason, it’s not “God’s will”- blah, blah, blah.

What I learned when my Lil Pharaoh died is that whether I knew it or not I had some subconscious belief, some misguided trust that such a pointless tragedy would never touch down in my life.  SIDS was something that happened to other people, as was starvation, war, genocide, the stoning of people for the crime of loving, torture… well; you get the point.

What an incredibly brutal awakening from a dream I didn’t even know I was living.

To make a long story short, The High Priestess card is representative of the potential for me to again have a relationship with the elements and energies of this natural world and maybe… maybe even the Gods and whatever Light there is.  There seems to be a crack of light shining into this dark cave of my year and a half or so of existential despair.

And maybe…

Just maybe, I can help my precious daughter come through it in some way.  I have hope today, and that’s more than I’ve dared in a very long and dark time.

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