Welcome to Thornesworld

grief loss grieving death

In a nutshell:

Do you have 2.3 children, a corporate job, walk in closets and a white picket fence?

I don’t!

Come see how the other half lives at Thorne’s World, where a pair of lesbians are eking out a sustainable lifestyle on 40 acres of desert scrub.

We rescue parrots, assorted critters, and save garbage from the landfills. We precycle, recycle and upcycle; creating art from junk and treasure from trash.

Follow along on the journey of a witch and a butch in love, building a roadside attraction and spiritual retreat off the grid!

Thornesboots

Thornesboots

The long version:

I am a 47 year old woman.  I am a mother, a grandmother, a sister, daughter.  I am wise and naive, thoughtful and foolish, analytical and intuitive.  I have been a wife, a widow and am now a partner.

I am a writer, and an artist having earned my living by my creativity for most of my adult life.  My current focus is body art in the form of custom permanent tattoo and found object/mixed media mosaic and sculpture.

I am a feminist, a humanist, an environmentalist; a witch and a stone femme lesbian.  I am a crone before my time, having passed my moontides for some years now and having survived too many of those I love, including my soulmale and one true husband, Jerry, gone too soon at 45, in January of 1998 and my precious baby grandson, Bishop Alexander, who passed from this world after too short a stay on October 18, 2007.
I am a recovering alcoholic and addict of 21+ years of sobriety.  I have clinical depression, PTSD and panic syndrome which are treated and manageable.  I have fibromyalgia which is managed by diet, meditation and self awareness. I am struggling with acceptance of the term “disabled” as it applies to me.

I am a free thinker, I question authority, am an embarrassed conspiracy theorist, and a pretty far left activist.

I am the matriarch (out of line) of our clan, and live on 40 acres in the High Desert (Mojave) of So. Cali, where I share my home with my partner; the GirlyBoi love of my life, 4 dogs, 3 cats and 5 rescued/rehomed companion parrots and one spoiled cockatoo.  My disabled mom lives in a separate house here on the ranch, as does my “sister-in-love” and one teen nephew. My GirlyBoi is a lesbian identified soft butch who works as a carpenter and framer in the building trade.

I have returned to blogging after a sort of existential crisis/dark night of the soul that was brought on by the horror of man’s inhumanity to man, the pain and violence in our world and culminating for me in the senseless death of my “Lil Pharoah”.

I am still grieving the loss of my precious grandson of only 6 months who died October, 2007 of SIDS.  I am deeply mourning my powerlessness over the unspeakable loss his mother, my only child and daughter, is suffering. Grief and Loss in Thorne’s World is a collection of some of my posts on grief and grieving.

I am grieving the death of my darling grandmother who died 7-3-08 at a well lived 90 years of age, (and lovingly cared for by me for the last 10 years of her life), but who I miss deeply.

I am a two time successful NaNoWriMo novelist who wants to actually finish and revise my novels for publication.

I am trying to find myself again, or better yet- recreate myself in the wake of my recent life-quakes.
“It’s a good life, if you don’t weaken”

~~anonymous attributed by Ruby I Escher, 1918-2008