It’s Tarot Tuesday, a new meme by chameleonsdream who blogs at Coffee Break and Everyday Tarot (Both, by the way, great blogs and well worth visiting!)

I am in love with this Image from the Tarot of the Dead.  It has such a great Dia De Los Muertos feeling and style.  I think I need this deck.

The High Priestess card always speaks to me of potential.  It is the number 2 card, the first card carrying the energy of duality which is reflected in the black and white drapery on either side of the central image.  She is what may be, what could be.  She is possibility and wishes and the planting of seeds in Spring.  Often she represents hidden or unformed knowledge or talent.  She can stand for activities or business ventures still in the brainstorming stage, ripe for action but not yet put into play.

I think she’s a perfect card for me today, in the Spring and while I work to learn new ways to process and share my knowledge and writing with a wider audience.  She speaks to me of the potential for growth.

On a deeper level she represents a re-awakening of spirit and perhaps some level of connection with the Gods and the Universe for me.

Truth be told, I never was one to “trust” the Gods on a large scale or as part of the big picture.  I always knew that there is no guiding intelligence presiding over this insane mess of a world with all its incredible beauty and devastating horrors.  That life happens to us all and there is often no rhyme or reason to it.  Not everything happens for a reason, it’s not “God’s will”- blah, blah, blah.

What I learned when my Lil Pharaoh died is that whether I knew it or not I had some subconscious belief, some misguided trust that such a pointless tragedy would never touch down in my life.  SIDS was something that happened to other people, as was starvation, war, genocide, the stoning of people for the crime of loving, torture… well; you get the point.

What an incredibly brutal awakening from a dream I didn’t even know I was living.

To make a long story short, The High Priestess card is representative of the potential for me to again have a relationship with the elements and energies of this natural world and maybe… maybe even the Gods and whatever Light there is.  There seems to be a crack of light shining into this dark cave of my year and a half or so of existential despair.

And maybe…

Just maybe, I can help my precious daughter come through it in some way.  I have hope today, and that’s more than I’ve dared in a very long and dark time.

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